this sux
I had a really shit night on Friday. It was no different to any other night I guess but lately I have been getting very lonely, especially after I’ve had a few drinks. In the past, drinking has always helped me to escape from reality, but recently, it has been causing me to get really depressed. Last night I had two beers, had dinner, and sat on IRC waiting for something to happen. When nothing happend, I got in a shit. Even this morning I was still feeling like crap.
I think I am going to observe a ‘no standing’ policy on IRC from now on. I’ll no longer leave it just sitting there. I won’t say that I am not going back there because, well, there is someone there that I care about, and even though we are quite capable of using the phone, for some reason we only ever chat on IRC. I don’t know what I would do without you TMC, I really appreciate you being there for me.
So no more IRC, no more drinking alone. What do I do? I have become so withdrawn from society. Mum suggested that I join Mensa. Thanks for the vote of confidence mum, but I am not THAT smart. I don’t feel like joining any of the boys club type computer groups. I am totally dissolutioned with politics, though I guess there is no reason why I couldn’t join the greens. Remedial basket weaving isn’t going to help here.
I know people are overrated and all, but how does one go out and meet people. I have forgoten how, or maybe I never knew how. IRC is useless, i either think the person at the other end is a wanker, or they think that I am. Night clubs might be OK if you have a big penis and are looking for a root, but I don’t, and I’m not looking for that. Its not like someone with a girlfriend can post a personal ad without looking like a total tool. Hey even if i didn’t have a girlfriend, I’d still look like a tool placing a personal :). I was thinking of transferring uni to QUT next semester so I would actually be on campus but I don’t think that is going to work out. I would have to start turning down a lot of work. If I start turning down work, I soon wont have anyone to work for.
Its 1am, time for bed. Another day of this shit over.
Questions, comments and suggestions to me@vobiscum.net. Abuse to /dev/null. Members of mensa go drink like a fish and take lots of drugs so you are forced to lower the entrance requirements.